Sorry I’ve been MIA for a while. Holidays and snow days have filled my last month and a half, as I’m sure has been the case for you as well. And to be perfectly honest, I’ve also been at a loss of what to write about. I didn’t have any topics in mind. The past 2 Sundays at church, our minister has been preaching on life groups. I’ve heard of them, but have never been apart of one and wasn’t sure what it was about. As he began to describe them, I immediately was intrigued. Life groups are a group of people doing life together and helping each other stay accountable in their relationship with God. That’s exactly what I’ve been looking for.
I’ve been apart of many groups on my journey with autism. My husband and I have attended multiple parent groups, have gone to seminars, participated in conferences, and school sponsored events. They’ve never really resonated with me. I felt most were too speaker oriented and I never got to know the other parents and their stories which was the main reason I was there. Or there was too little structure and the conversation was controlled by only 1-2 people. When Jason spoke of these life groups, I thought this is it. This is what I’ve been searching for. He had a layout with specific questions that each person would answer. I’m not sure if I remembered them exactly as he said, but this is the gist: 1. Where are you winning? 2. Where are you struggling? 3. Where did you see God working in your life?.
Where are you winning?
My wins are related to my son always. He is why I’m here. He is why I breathe. He is why I work as hard as I do. So our win this week is Carter has had a really great week at school. Even with a long weekend, MLK day and a snow day. Even with mom being gone 3 nights this week and not being the one to put him to bed (he is a real momma’s boy). I have gotten great report after great report. Actually, he hasn’t gotten a bad report since going back after winter break. I am so happy he is thriving at his new school. Learning, participating, interacting. I couldn’t be happier or more proud.
Where are you struggling?
Well, just like my wins are related to my son, so are my struggles. I thought of the hard places in our lives right now and had a list. But then I thought, no. I want to be vulnerable. I want to talk about what I’m struggling with. I have had a hard time letting go of our old life. I thought about it a lot and thought we’ll be moving back in a couple years. We just moved to Ohio for the school, but we’ll eventually move back to Oklahoma. And that has not only been not helpful, it’s been making me pretty sad. I miss my old life, my friends and family, my old job. I miss our old house. I want to go back. I figured we’d eventually go back. But when I’m honest, I know we won’t.
Where did you see God working in your life?
This is why I speak so highly of the God in my life. Where God sees me struggling, he then begins to work. My struggle with moving back has been harder than I thought. I kept thinking of ways we could make it work later. But God eventually tugged on my heart and said no, this is exactly where you should be. You asked me to help you help your son and that’s exactly what I’m doing. I went to resource fair about summer programs for special needs kids/adults at a nearby school last night. I was floored by how many opportunities they had, but mostly I was impressed with how many for adults. Day programs, respite programs, summer camps, work placements and resources. And I felt God say, see this is what I’m talking about. This is why your future is here – because your son’s future is here. And it is full of possibilities and opportunities that don’t exist in Oklahoma.
I am going to try and do a post every week (maybe every 2 weeks) with this format. I also want to give you the opportunity to email or comment with your answers. Let’s do life together.